I don't know... I guess I was expecting more because I thought we were the same. But I guess the different circumstances we were in contributed to the gap. I tried, at least. Maybe I am the one who is not ready, not being able to move on when she already can.
I'm really not sure what would have happened if I talked to her a few days ago. She said she could have broken down... Why? She said she didnt really feel anything. So will she have felt something? Or is she just putting up a strong front so that we won't need to go through the angst we went through in the past?
This is confusing. But the fact that I keep thinking about it means that I am not over it. But she has her own life now, I think its better that I do not disturb her. Maybe I will meet her for the last time tomorrow at Udders.
Friends from now on? Or maybe its even impossible? I don't know where this will lead to. I will just take one step at a time.
Sucks to be me :/
Racing
Posted by
Sebastian Toh
on Tuesday, August 03, 2010
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It's a feeling difficult to express. I have to do something, I need to try!
Day before a break
Woah, today sure is busy day. Had the SUTD Photo and Video Shoot. Arrived when Edward was already halfway into his video shoot. I was laughing away with Sharolyn from SUTD because Edward was just so funny. But then, I thought he looked cool and he fared pretty well with his face. Edward say he looked and sounded fake. Hmm, I do not think so at all. His content about sports linked to engineering was pretty good and unique.
After him, it was my turn. I did'nt really know what to do, just followed the words on the screen and keep repeating and repeating the whole chunk of words. I thought it was quite fun, it was somewhat like acting you know. I had to kept playing with the ball bearings and metal pieces, at different angles and distances. I even had a one-take, lol. But I actually fumbled up some of the words during some of the takes, but they still took it haha. I hoped they realised that I spoke the wrong stuff lol. It was definitely a new experience taking a photo and video shoot. My first time in a studio and my first time having so many photos taken of me.
After that, went back home to take a nap till 5. Woah, I was just so worn out because of the previous day. Had supper with Edward, Joe, JT, Jia Xin and Kelly. Only slept at 2am. Had to wake up early for the photo and video shoot. Even woke up with a headache but its alright now (:
Went for a birthday dinner for Dennis after that at Olio Cafe at Marine Square. The food was not bad, but the serving was too small! Haha, had to steal some of the fries and ate Joe's leftover Beef Burger. I don't know why I was so hungry lol. Dennis got a Pull and Bear Tshirt for his birthday present and a slice of Chocolate Mousse for the celebration. Time flies, and we are all 20 now. We are going to Sunset Grill for the next birthday celebration to take on the Level 30 Buffalo Wings with the Birthday Boy/Girl.
Can't wait for tomorrow's Genting trip man. Gotta go fetch the peeps now (:
After him, it was my turn. I did'nt really know what to do, just followed the words on the screen and keep repeating and repeating the whole chunk of words. I thought it was quite fun, it was somewhat like acting you know. I had to kept playing with the ball bearings and metal pieces, at different angles and distances. I even had a one-take, lol. But I actually fumbled up some of the words during some of the takes, but they still took it haha. I hoped they realised that I spoke the wrong stuff lol. It was definitely a new experience taking a photo and video shoot. My first time in a studio and my first time having so many photos taken of me.
After that, went back home to take a nap till 5. Woah, I was just so worn out because of the previous day. Had supper with Edward, Joe, JT, Jia Xin and Kelly. Only slept at 2am. Had to wake up early for the photo and video shoot. Even woke up with a headache but its alright now (:
Went for a birthday dinner for Dennis after that at Olio Cafe at Marine Square. The food was not bad, but the serving was too small! Haha, had to steal some of the fries and ate Joe's leftover Beef Burger. I don't know why I was so hungry lol. Dennis got a Pull and Bear Tshirt for his birthday present and a slice of Chocolate Mousse for the celebration. Time flies, and we are all 20 now. We are going to Sunset Grill for the next birthday celebration to take on the Level 30 Buffalo Wings with the Birthday Boy/Girl.
Can't wait for tomorrow's Genting trip man. Gotta go fetch the peeps now (: