Another Cycle...

Sigh, I saw the faces of my parents after I stepped into the house. It's happening again, or actually, it was already in the process. Damn, why can't my family have a peaceful time? Must it end up in divorce?

Nope, only my mother is considering divorce. And she is really pissing my dad off. Honestly, I am on my Dad's side. My mother just keep thinking that as long as she stays away from our family, all problems will be solved. She just does not understand the situation around her. Her thinking is not logical at all. This is getting too much out of our hands, and we know, that this may implicate others too. We have no choice, she just keep saying the words 'divorce'.

My father is really out of things to say already. Anything we say will be easily countered by mum. No matter what we try to say to her, it is all useless. Now she wants to call her friends, to ask how to find a lawyer. Omg... She is disturbing other people, and deliberately trying to show that she is the 'innocent' one.

You know... I don't really care anymore... If she can't realise what she has done wrong, then we shall all have to take the hard way...

Family Problems

I didn't notice anything wrong when I first stepped into the house today. I was back from driving lesson, at 11pm and my dad asked my if there was work tomorrow. It seemed like the usual situation I see every time when my parents are home. What I did not know was what had happened.

After washing up, I heard the sobs of my mother. And what I thought was "Here it goes again, the roller coaster ride for the whole family". Sigh, why does this always have to happen? From the conversations between my mother and father, it seems that it is majorly about Christianity and stuff. Seriously, I do not know why my mother is really so uptight about the issue. She even wants to matchmake us instead of us going to find our own girlfriends... -.-

What era are we in now and who does that? And she keep comparing with other families and fabricating lies, thinking her own world is the whole world itself. She is like a frog in a well, and she has had a sheltered life from don't know when. Along with her stubborn attitude, she never ever admits her mistake. She said her only solution is that she disappears from this world. What my father said perfectly makes sense to me, but she does not understand a single word. Anything from the Bible, or what we have learnt from church, my father tries to apply in his words. But still, she always think the otherwise which in actual, is almost entirely wrong.

She can say my father is lying, when he is actually telling the truth. She likes to twist the facts and make stories up (or just twist them) into her favour, causing so many rifts between us and others like our relatives, friends and other people. We really have tried to do what we can, by giving in to her. But the cycle just never ends. It has become worse and these quarrels and nonsense repeats itself at a higher frequency.

Yes, we all do believe in God. But yet, she still keeps thinking of negative things, and try to make use of what has happened negatively in the past against us. TOO NEGATIVE. She thinks that whatever she does is useless, but that is not true at all. When can ever our words reach her? We try to console or tell her truth, but all she does is to rebuke us in a loud voice.

Mum, do you know that you always use a very loud voice to convey your every word? Mum, do you ever realise why you don't have that many friends at all? Do you know why they left you?

This problem has been recurring for many years, but the effect is now getting more obvious. They touched on the issue of divorce a few months ago, but fortunately, nothing happened. My father has been very patient and caring, but he is losing it every second my mother goes bonkers. She even has problems with us using the telephone or my brothers using the car. She loves to use what she has to press against us. It's always on the issue of our car and money.

When she tries to admit, all she can say is that "WE ARE ALWAYS RIGHT" and stuff like that to spite us. We really do not know how to respond, when we are already talking nicely to her and we get this kind of reply from her.

I really hope this can be salvaged. God, at least give us the hope that it can be done. No matter what we do, we always disappoint in the end. It gets worse, and we can't do anything else. As she expresses herself, all the other family members only feel pain in our hearts. If only she truly understand us...